feeling tire the past few days. i think it has to do with stress, not getting enough sleep and also the low quality of sleep i had been getting. and also, as suggested by danny, it might be the weather.

i think i blog more when i m suppose to be busy and stressed. it's like taking a break. getting away from it all for a second or two. i was tire the whole day, took an afternoon nap but i was still tire. my eyes were tire but i feel so much better after dinner. i like the night better. during the day time i just want to do something else rather than sitting at the desk. some people say morning is a good time to write. yeah, it's true when you are not tire. but then the morning quickly becomes afternoon.

i did an outline and figuring a way to put the personal story into it.

just a thought, i think people often hide from the unknown and possibly painful. we all have some fears. on my part, i haven't face a few. at the same time, i think i endured some abuse more than most people were willing to.

Calvin

where can u get stamp?

3:55pmThukten

how the hell should i know? you are the australian

not me

3:55pmCalvin

well, you have been here longer recently that i do haha

i only been here for ... 4 months haha

3:56pmThukten

haha..okie

3:56pmCalvin

maybe ask her to leave them at her pigeon hole

for us to pick up

3:57pmThukten

haha..you tell her

3:57pmCalvin

and tell her we want to save the trees

and lower carbon emission

in the company of friends i feel very blessed.

yesterday night it was our last official basketball practice at Marrickville and we were to celebrate the November birthdays and also the Dec through February because a lot of us will be leaving for the Australian summer.

it started at night, so not the usual morning practice and i forgot to eat my banana. i ran the laps but didn't stretch enough because i was called up to play a little 4 on 4 before the actual practice. it was fun to not be playing in the 5 persons set form for a change and we just play as if on the playground.

then we were separated into team A and B again. we were able to match p with them because they weren't that disciplined and had some internal argument, and also because we played decent defense. They had size, speed, superior athletic ability and more talent but we kept the game close. we lost by 4 at the end.

after a quarter, my left leg felt pulled. i think the banana and the shortened stretching was the reason. i couldn't run afterward. I could jog but not run. nobody playing knew it, but i couldn't accelerate or extend my jump.

i think the team is coming together, especially B team. we were the underdog and we knew it. we knew that we can't beat the other team as individual, we had to maximize whatever we had with better judgment, passing, organization, awareness, effort and defense. we had to steal every opportunity for our advantage.

i felt slow, like a limitation of my body. sometimes i feel invincible, probably more so in high school and early college days and now i feel like my legs are not carrying me as fast as i wanted, and no as high as i thought they could lift me off the ground. there is the fitness and overweight issue and i have been jogging a bit the past week.

but i m thankful for the friendship made on the basketball court. we do play rough and very physical but i try to leave that on the court. it's basketball, there's always shuffling and it's hard to avoid the bruises, and the thing is to not take it personally. it's strange on the court. sometimes you need to be physical to get respect. on the very least, you have to be a wall. you can't let guys push you around, you have to stand your ground.

thanks a lot to the leadership too, they really put a lot of heart and effort into it. alex bought us cake and drinks. sang is not without flaw but his maturity is beyond his year.

for the past week and today, we had missionary workers visiting us from the Philippines. learned a lot. and after lunch we went to Bondi for sculptures at the sea. it was nice, very nice. the only trouble was my left leg was still hurting a bit. it's fun to hang ou and the place was just beautiful.