Saw Transformer last night and it was just gruesome. The humans in the movie were basically all really annoying, especialy Sam, his parents and his roomates, Neo. I can't believe how bad Transformer is. I think the filmmakers made the mistakes of making human the focus of the film. I don't really care about Sam or Megan Fox. The lines all sucked. I felt like I was watching some really bad cartoon made for late elementary school kids. The lines were annoying. It would probably be better if the just take one of the old episodes of Transformer cartoon from the 80s and just remake that and leave it as that. The plot was so fake, and hard to believe. There were loopholes everywhere in the story. Anyway, I felt like I lost 2 hours and $7.5, and oh yea, it was long. There were some good action scenes but the story just sucked.

Been back to LA from the trip for almost a week now and I have started packing and I have to throw away a lot of stuff. But in the mean time I dug up a lot of old stuff and it's kind of a self-learning experience and going back to who I was and how I grew up with the things that I treasured and been with me through the years.

There are things that haven't changed at all. I am still a hesitant person, and never really get into anything too deep. Kind of afraid that something would take over me. Really weird.


M&m

Met up with the two Michelles last night for a drink, haha, tea to be more accurate but I actually didn't get the time to eat so I ate dinner instead. It was really cool meeting and seeing one another after all these years. I can't believe it's been like 7 years since our freshman year together at D2E at A&I. We just kind of caught up with one another and talked about old memories and people. Michelle was complaining about not having enough to do and having slow days at work, we were like, "What?!" That's so fantastic. I wish I had that kind of work instead of being slaved over. It was fun and they haven't changed at all. I wonder if we changed. A little bit physically (except me), but otherwise...haha, well, we grew older and act a bit more mature now. They behave more like adults and women instead of girls. Yeah, I think we did grow up.


Growing

I think I noticed is that people can still be really immature and childish even in their 30s, 40s, 50s, no, actually, people can be very immature and childish until the day they die.

Sometimes we think that we are pretty old when we reach like 30 or 40 but age actually does not necessary mean maturity. We all have a lot of blind spots as far as development goes. We all have weaknesses, things that we need to work on. It might be our personality, patience, short-temper, rage, lust, selfishness and etc. A lot of it is actually related to selfishness, a lot of the time we are not even aware of it. It's somewhat natural to be selfish, which is the way we do and think. But I think it's troubling that it seems to me that a good number of young people are "stuck" with some kind of set mentality, way of thinking and doing, strong subjective view, even stubbornness really early in life (like in teens, 20s to 30s). Just not very open-minded and has a closed in view already in their young lives. That's scary.

That's why I think it is good for young people to go to different places and experience cultures, societies and communities with different world-views. We all have blind spots, things (like issues) that are hidden from us at our current position. There is the mainland Chinese worldview, the Communist China worldview, the pro-Beijing Hong Kong worldview, the pro-democratic Hong Kong worldview, the Washington worldview, the overseas Taiwanese Chinese worldview and etc.

The problem comes when we start to blame others for all the problems and stop to learn and do something about what's going on, setting ourselves apart from the problems (as if they don't bother us) and think of ourselves as superior.